What Being Hypothyroid Feels Like to Me

Hypothyroidism is so strange. On the outside I look normal. There are standard symptoms and simple blood tests, yet I was wondering if everyone experiencing this does feel just a different. It also occurred to me that my doctors have no idea how this really feels. I have been doing a lot of comparison to the first time I as extremely hypothryroid. I'm counting anything I've clearly experienced twice to be a symptom and therefore not to be "brain".

Once i get better, I start to forget what it feels like. I wanted to document it while it is fresh - in no particular order:

• tired (obvi - but I mean really tired. Not necessarily sleepy - but often so tired I was only really "awake" for about 2 hrs after waking up in the morning. then i would lose it a bit, and spent the rest of the trying to recover).
• brain fog - (dumb, easily confused, forgetful, s l o w. I don't forget how to do math - I forget math exists).
• lack of sex drive (embarrassing to admit, of course, but very true, very real, and very weird)
• susceptible to cold (brrr)
• lower pain tolerance
• decreased appetite (as in I eat less, but also as in I rarely feel hungry. Instead I just get even more tired).
• forgetful (ha)
• spacey (really spacey. my mouth hangs open and i don't blink enough. it can be mid-conversation, or mid-sentence).
• sensitive to loud noises (loud noises feel like they are almost causing me physical pain.)
• easily overwhelmed/overstimulated (busy places cause me to shut down. i can't stand it. my brain just stop working. i once got stuck in an IKEA and didn't recover for literally 3 days. I'm not sure how long I was stuck - 20 min? I went with my family when I was too sick to do much else. i didn't realize there was a (gasp) SALE. i told my family i would wait outside, but got overstimulated so fast i couldn't get back out. you know how IKEAs are kind of one-way? they want you to stay, and i was very easily fooled. I disliked IKEA (the store itself - I liked and still like a lot of their stuff) for years after.
• fat (this SUCKS. my metabolism is shut off. OFF. plus it's so hard to get any exercise. i would go for walks, have to keep sitting down, and then feel like shit the rest of the day. i can't stress enough how unlike normal life it is).
• lethargic (recently - ie this time through - maybe 3 weeks ago? i have this striking memory of trying to get from one chair to another. all i had to go was go to the table, 2 ft beside me, to eat a meal prepared for me that i knew would make me feel better. you know when you need to screw up your face, clench with your fists and grunt to move or get up? this is nothing like that. if i could have done all that i would have moved in a second. it felt closer to having to flex my soul. ;))
• emotional (just like it sounds).

I get another TSH test tomorrow. I'm hoping for 8. :) (Last was 13, maybe 3 weeks ago. I am on a new synthryoid dose so big it's measured in mg instead of ug. it's the Notorious B.I.G., the Rita McNeil, the fridge of synthryoid. Come on....8!